SUKESHI HAS A DREAM

My Father's Country

Heavy thumps, furtive knocks. 
A gloved hand searches safety 
against boots, jeeps, whistles, 
sovereignty's untired death-rattle. 
Echoes of an undeclared war.

Democracy is Andromache;
the virtuous wife whom
a weather beaten Greek ship
leads away from home.
Achilles' son. Who else?
She will submit to his caresses
at night, as brave Hector's
grave grows still, damp with
her tears. 

She had to give away 
their first born, the six years 
old Astynax, to be hurled 
from battlements
of a city built by his ancestors.
Washed by the blood of his
many uncles. 

Only today, in the noon sun
the city square was drenched
again in the virginal blood 
of Polixena, Priam's daughter.

She sang at festivals; from her
chaste hands patron gods
received oblations. She, whom
Achilles loved and whose sacrifice
his ghost demanded. That is what
Odysseus said to the troops.

It is the city where Astynax
opened his eyes many times
to blood curdling prophecies
of Cassandra, his other aunt.
Apollo's high priestess.

The men who take him away
from Andromache's arms
are kind, one says he'll prepare 
sandal wood.
Another's voice cracks when 
he says he'll bring flowers,
wash the wounds in sacred waters. 

Knit him together somehow 
so his father will know him 
in the other world, lift him up
in his arms. Kiss his brow. 

My father's country is not ancient Troy
Just another place of force
where weather darkened timber
eves hide Ovid's red breasted swallow.
A war bird raves and rages. 
As a tongue less Philomela turns, once again, 
into a nightingale.

She waits for roses to bloom
in the city's gardens. 
What city? What land lowered
flags lie muffled in sleep?

[© Lalita Pandit, July 21, 1996].